Monday 17 June 2013

Lazy Monday

Salam.

Alhamdulillah. We still have been given opportunity from Allah to live in the world. As of me, it was quite exiting and enjoyable weekend as Zarifa seems ok and she also sleep well for the past 3 days. Alhamdulillah. During weekend, I also able to sit and teach Zahra on her Mathematics exercise. For Zahra, I think she must be accompanied by somebody in order to ensure that she will complete her exercise. This is really important since she will undergo class placement test at the end of year as it will determine her class in the school next year. Another one, Zulfa is always Zulfa. Happy kid and always beat her sister Zahra, smack down and also bite her. I don't know where she learn the action but it seems this little girl quite 'ganas'. Pity Zahra, always been 'buli' by Zulfa.

For today, I have some works to do and I think I must start back the work since I need to finish it before 5 pm. Otherwise, I'm not able to go back home early as usual.

Wassalam.

Saturday 15 June 2013

New Gintell Treadmill

Salam.

Morning everybody. It seems that I should be more healthy and fit with my new Gintell treadmill. We brought it last week since there is promotion in injunction with Father' Day presentation for only RM 3998. My wife and I believe that this is a good deal and we brought it for 3 years payments. Less than 1week the machine arrived.

This morning I have tried use it runding for almost 3 km and Alhamdulillah the machine look fine and I am confidence with it. I tried to upload the puisi but seems problem to upload with my Tab. Later on I 'll try again.

Today is Saturday. I'm not sure what we are going to do today. Hope to have a good rest insyaAllah.

Friday 14 June 2013

Back to INTAN

Salam.

Alhamdulillah. I have been posted back to INTAN after completing my MSc. Currently I'm attached to Centre for Project Management where our core business is to provide training with regards to development planning and project management to the public servant.

For me myself, it has been almost 7 years I'm in INTAN and of course many people asking why still INTAN? As a PTD you should explore other opportunities and challenges. Yes its true but I believe that my stint in INTAN this time should be a short one. Frankly speaking, I was looking for place in central agency such as UKAS or ICU after my MSc. However, current situation involving my special baby - Zarifa forced me to request JPA to put me in INTAN. I am a family man. I believe that my family needs me very much at this difficult time. With the flexible working condition as well as familiar environment, I could spend more time with my family rather than surrender myself to the hectic working environment in central agency.

InsyaAllah, I will be up for the challenge soon. At this moment, let me finish my business with INTAN first.

Thursday 13 June 2013

The birth of Zarifa

Salam.

Adalah terlalu pedih untuk bercerita. Anak ketiga saya, Nur Wafiatul Zarifa, yang lahir pada 7 Februari 2013  adalah seorang bayi yang sangat istimewa. Dia dilahirkan sebagai bayi yang menghadapi 'chromosome disorder' pada kromosom no. 18, yang dipanggil sebagai Trisomy-18 atau Edward Syndrome. Berita yang diterima sangat mengejutkan. Saya perturunkan kembali catatan saya yang dibuat melalui Facebook, hampir sebulan selepas kehadiran Zarifa.

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Alhamdulillah.Allahuakbar! Allahuakbar! Allahuakbar! Tepat jam 8.47 pagi, 7 Februari 2013, isteriku selamat melahirkan cahaya mata ketiga kami, baby girl, diberi nama Nur Wafiatul Zarifa. Apabila lahir sahaja, Dr. telah rasakan sesuatu yang tidak kena pada bayi ini dan baby terus dibawa ke NICU, PMC untuk pemeriksaan lanjut pediatrician . Aku tidak mengambil berat sangat dengan anggapan semuanya akan OK. Namun pada sebelah petang hari yang sama, pediatrician selepas memeriksa semula bayi memaklumkan yang bayi ketiga kami ini mempunyai masalah kesihatan. Yang pertama, masalah jantung yang mana hanya sebelah sahaja yang mempunyai injap manakala yang sebelah lagi tertutup, namun apa yang lebih menakutkan adalah yang kedua, pediatrician suspect yang Zarifa ada menghadapi masalah Trisomy 18 atau lebih dikenali sebagai Edward Syndrome. Sahabat2 boleh google dengan lebih lanjut tentang perkara ini namun boleh dikatakan yang baby Edward Syndrome selalunya tidak bertahan lama. Aku tidak mampu berkata apa-apa, hanya menahan sebak dan pada masa yang sama bertanyakan diri sendiri, kenapa kami? Kenapa kami yang diuji sebegini? Bagaimana pula nak maklumkan kepada isteri yang masih dalam tidak bermaya kesan pembedahan di sebelah pagi. Namun, kugagahi dan ceritakan masalah yang berlaku kepada isteri. Ibu mana yang tidak sedih? Ibu mana yang tak sedih jika baby yang baru saja dilahirkan menghadapi masalah sebegini besar? Hampir seminggu kami bingung, confuse, terpinga-pinga. Namun, pada akhirnya, kami berjanji yang tidak kiralah apa yang berlaku, kami akan jaga, berikan yang terbaik terhadap anugerah Allah yang tidak ternilai ini. Selepas isteri disharge dari PMC, kami berulang alik dari rumah di Shah Alam ke PMC, setiap hari, aku datang seorang sebelah pagi bawa bekalan EBM dari mamanya, duduk dengan Zarifa sampai tengah hari, baca dan tiupkan ayat-ayat suci Al Quran dan pada sebelah petang/malam, bawa mama Zarifa ke PMC. Selepas 10 hari, pediatrician confirmed tentang Edward Syndrome hasil ujian lab yang dibuat. Tiada lagi kejutan, memang sudah dijangka kerana kami yakin pandangan pediatrician sebelum ini. Pada mulanya Zarifa dibantu sepenuhnya dengan bantuan tekanan oksigen untuk bernafas, selepas 16 dan melihatkan Zarifa makin selesa bernafas, kami decided untuk bekalkan hanya sedikit bantuan oksigen sahaja dan selepas hari ke 18, Zarifa bernafas sendiri tanpa bantuan oksigen lagi. Pada hari ke 25, Zarifa sesak nafas, mukanya nampak agak biru dan jelas nampak tidak bermaya. Walaupun cuba untuk tenang, kami tetap gelabah, dan takut kehilangan Zarifa. Alhamdulillah, Zarifa kembali stabil 4-5 jam selepas itu. Hari ini, setelah hampir 28 hari di NICU, PMC, kami decided untuk bawa Zarifa pulang ke rumah. Tiada apa lagi yang boleh dibuat di PMC. Sesusah manapun insyaAllah, ayah dan mama serta keluarga akan jaga Zarifa sepertima mana kami jaga dan besarkan anak-anak yang lain. Walaupun tiada apa boleh dibuat kepada masalah jantung Zarifa, kami akan berikan yang terbaik untuknya kerana itulah anugerah Allah yang sangat bernilai bagi kami. Kami berdoa kepada Allah diberikan kekuatan menghadapi ujian ini dan juga berdoa agar ujian ini akan makin mendekatkan kami dengan Allah. Kami bersyukur dengan rahmat ini dan sedar sebenarnya, masih ada lagi ramai di luar sana yang jauh lagi susah dan berat ujiannya. InsyaAllah, Zarifa akan kami jaga sebaik mungkin. Terima kasih keluarga dan rakan-rakan yang melawat, yang mendoakan kesejahteraan kami sekeluarga.

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Zarifa selepas sejam dilahirkan - Terus diberikan tekanan oksigen
Zarifa just before going home for the 1st time after 28 days in NICU
Zarifa as of 11th June 2013 - Sangat comel!



Alhamdulillah - I've graduated!


Alhamdulillah. Praise to Allah. Finally I graduated with MSc in Integrated Construction Project Management.  

First and foremost, I would like to thank Allah SWT for giving me the strength to successfully accomplish Master of Science in Integrated Construction Project Management. It has been a great and pleasurable experience as a Master student in the prestigious institution – UiTM.

To start with, I had chosen this programme since it has perfect combination of various knowledge and skills related to Project Management through multi-approaches learning medium together with experienced and competent lecturers. As an Administrative and Diplomatic Officer, I believe that this programme will enhance my competency and capability particularly in Project Management field in order for me to serve the nation better.                               

As the classes were conducted in the evening, I have ample time during the day; have a quick reading on the notes prior to the class, completing assignments as well as coordinating group discussion among colleagues. I must say that wise time management between studying and family life is the key to my success.

On the other hand, I believe that every Post Graduate student must have critical thinking skills, ability to analyse and synthesize information systematically and also have right attitudes towards learning process. I would like to share that focus, discipline and maturity are the driving forces that led to my successful in my Master study.

It is also crucial to highlight the significance of human relations as there should be regular interactions between students and lecturer where it must be based on mutual respect and in conducive learning medium; and that environment was applicable throughout my learning journey in UiTM.

For me, I believe that my family is very influential in charting my success. I will not be successful without strong support from my wife, my children, Zahra, Zulfa and Zarifa whom have been my inspiration, my parents’ blessing and also never ending encouragements of family members. I am also grateful to JPA that granted me study leave and scholarship.

Finally, I wish to concur that all factors above will not bring me anywhere here without the provision and providence of Allah. Alhamdulillah.